A while...

Wow, so it's been a while since I've posted. A lot has changed, but a lot is just the same. I am still in Colorado, but with a definite direction.

Last weekend was my first time in New York city for the Marymount Manhattan College dance auditions. There was 85 people in a room no where near sufficient for that many black leotards. Needless to say it was a bit of a disaster.

As beautiful as the facilities were and as amazing as the city was, the second I walked in I knew it was not the place for me. Mother's putting their daughter's hair up in a bun, prepping them for what's to come, diva's galore. We did a typical ballet bar with a very short center (reminding me just how shitty my petite allegro is) and then we learned a jazz and modern combination. It was nearly impossible to see the choreographer try to teach the phrase, everyone squishing forward and pushing their way around. I can't even begin to tell you how many times I got kicked or slapped in the face. When they would call to switch lines, people would move back a couple steps and leave it at that. Frustrating.

Overall, I didn't do very well. I didn't suck or fall on my face, but I was so put off by that attitude and atmosphere of the whole endeavor that I couldn't get my flow together.

After 4 hours of mostly standing, I left without seeing the audition results. I knew that I wouldn't be on there, but even if by some miraculous perspective they thought I had potential, I didn't want to waste their time. That stereotypical 'dancer' world is what I'm trying to get away from. So, I am off to Chicago. I mailed my acceptance yesterday and it is final. My withdrawal from Colorado College has been processed and I am beginning my preparations to get out of this state. A relief.

Now that it is all final, the journey really begins. There is no turning back now. Just forward motion.

Oh, and if you haven't been to NY, GO. I was only there for 3 days and I barely scratched the surface, but instantly fell in love. If I get rich one day, maybe I'll venture back to a couple thousand dollar studio apartment.

Much love.